Ici/Now 202x

It all started when…

I became aware of the enormous weight nostalgia played in my life. I needed to find a way to rid myself of the anxiety that had plagued my life up until then. I felt I had wasted enough time and energy ruminating on what if, the mother of all questions and the never-ending pool of possible answers.

2016 was the year for me, the beginning of yet another chapter, one that was years in the making, though I did not know it at the time. It was time for big changes.

LIFE IS A SERIES OF NOWS was my mantra and the learning curve would be brutal: no more dwelling on the past (for real this time), no more grudges, no more hard feelings. I was the person I was with all of my baggage but I had to learn to experience every single moment to the fullest. No more distractions. One thing at a time. No projecting myself ahead, no second-guessing myself on decision I had taken.

In many ways, it was brutal, but in so many other ways, it was liberating. The power of now (Eckhart Tolle’s concept) was the shift in perspective that I needed. It almost instantly turned off all the unnecessary noise I heard in my mind. The clatter that ruled my life and that was so detrimental to my mental health. Suddenly, I lived. At a 110%. Self-aware, surrendering to the moment at hand, present.

Since 2016, I have been on a journey of discovery: my body, my spirituality, my soul, my creativity, my voice. This exploration has led me to Ici/Now 202x.

This little project has started out as a quest to help me readily achieve that state of surrender an artist yearns for in the creative process. To be “in it,” to have all the pieces fall into place, that oasis amid the desert, the eye of the storm, that place where nothing else matters but the work.

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The broad strokes…

In a fast-paced world we live in, we often just want to be somewhere else. The multiverse idea has plagued our imaginary, but it’s nothing new: we’ve always wondered “what if?” at one point or another. That idea that we could be the same person in another situation has kept many of us going over the years, perhaps even more in the past few years.

So, what if it were the other way around? What if one could be a different person in the same situation?

In creating a tapestry of some of the many variations of oneself, one discovers their capacity for adaptation over time. One always finds a way.

This project aims to distance oneself from the work and let what comes just flow through you. Create in the present moment, in real time. Without thinking about it. Dance and play as if no one is around.

Can one listen to the many versions of oneself without hearing oneself?